Embracing the Future…

There comes a time in everyone’s life where you sit and evaluate and take stock of things. This generally occurs around the beginning of the year, around your birthday or when something important and perhaps traumatic happens in your life.

Its strange and sad that we only do this evaluation when something special or different happens. We should be doing this everyday of our lives without question and without delay. I have been sitting and taking stock for some months now and there are changes that need to be made.

This year is going to be different and I can feel it. Things feel different and new and fresh and its not just because its only the 20^th of January but I can feel this is the year of possibilities. Although right now at this exact moment things are a bit tough for me and I am not exactly where I want to be, I’m still keeping my eyes locked on the bigger picture. I have suddenly and abruptly realised that I am getting older and I am getting more mature. I am less and less concerned about what people think of me and I am becoming more aware of what I want and what makes me happy. I want to be successful, I want the lifestyle and I want all the bells and whistles that go with it. At the end of the day we are in control of our own happiness and it is up to us to make sure that we are happy with our life and our progress. If you’re not happy with your life then get off your ass and make a change. It’s never too late or too early to change your circumstance and as the wise one’s say “obstacles are the things you see when you take your eyes of the goal”…

Love would be a benefit, but you know what? It’s not a prerequisite at all. If it comes along then great and if now is not the right time then so be it. There is a clear reason why it has not found me and when I’m ready it will come. In 2010 I discovered new things about myself in the love department. I discovered that I can distinguish between sex and love. I discovered that sometimes its great to let your hair down and I discovered that it’s perfectly normal to say no to an indecent proposal if you’re not that keen to do it.

Yes having Mr. Perfect by my side would be great but as a wise person in my life wrote recently “life does not begin when you are part of a couple…” Life continues and it hopefully gets better but you have already started and you have so much that you can do right now, why wait for your so called other half to show up and make you complete. You are complete the way you are and all you actually need is someone that compliments you and that you compliment.

I am taking on new challenges this year. I am looking toward my future and although I am scared that it’s too late I still have a voice way back in the dark passages of my mind that says: “it’s never too late…” I am going to educate myself, I am going to find that thing that makes me happy and I am going to achieve all my goals this year.

I am definitely going to do more hard labour. I love creating and I love completing something that I can see, touch and smell. I have learned that I can do all the things that a normal straight guy can do and I can in most cases do it better. The sky is the limit and as 2011 starts I can see that things are going to happen this year. There will be ups and there will be downs as with any other year but it is going to be a year that will jump start the next chapter of my life.

Turning 30 this year used to make me hyperventilate and feel the need to grab a paper bag. I refused to think about it and kept avoiding myself when the topic came up in my mind. But in recent months I have completely changed my view on that. I can’t wait to get older and more mature. I want to grow and I want to develop and that you can only do with age and experience and maturity.

So here is to me embracing the new dawn and appreciating everything that it holds, good and bad…

Love you all…